It All Went Down

Where is everything that we had?

Where are they right now?

Where did they go?

Or where did we go until we get here?

In this miserable, ambiguous, troublesome place

Through this path full of thorns with less light

We said: “Time together is never quite enough.”

Now, we’re asking whether we want it or not

The time to be together again

Are we totally long for it?

Are we still holding on to the moments we used to say meaningful?

Or just making less sense of it?

“You are my home.”

It feels like so long time ago

Are you my home and am I yours?

Or maybe, “home” also needs to be considered sometime for a while

I can’t stop asking why we are lost

I can’t stop thinking where I should go home

I still remember the look on your face

When we love that passionately

I still remember how you held me in your arms

Hugged me, kissed me and said that you loved me

So, why did you become this person I barely know?

Never imagined we’d be this way

Sometimes, I recall the smell of the rain

Since we have stories about “us and the rain”

Sometimes, I look through our photos

All the moments we shared, the good and the bad

All that I’m asking now, do you still remember them?

All that I know now, I don’t know how to be something that you miss

I used to look at the blue sky and smile

For I remember what happened between us

Under the bright sky and the smell after rain

The things we talked and laughed about

The way you held me and kissed me

Shouting how much you loved me with your moves

Now, if I look at the blue sky

I’ll turn a sad face and hold my tears

Feel that everything has been torn apart from us

How I miss the memories

And I know is that the sky reminds me of something sweet

Something that I don’t know may happen again or not

The sparks may should not be searched

Just let it be, as we speak

If it’s forced to be there,

We’ll break apart

Responsibility and commitment, as we know

But will we stay together like we used to say?

I don’t where we went and how everything turned out to be this way

I don’t know how to pulled you back up again

I don’t know how to keep you in my arms again

I don’t know how to hold on anymore

I’m falling deeper and further from the ground

And you can’t save me

As We Do

Do you know the feeling of having a sudden shock for missing your purpose?

It’s like one day, you wake up in the morning, brush your teeth, get dress, stare at the mirror, look at your reflection for a moment and suddenly get stung with this question which is actually been dangling in your mind for a while.

Ask yourself: What’s your life’s vision?

Walking down the hallway, taking a glance at some people, having a glimpse about things you want to do in the future, thinking about how today will turn out to be… Did you ever think about those all at once? For me, all of those things happen at the same time, every morning during my walk to campus and class.

It seems like I’m trying so hard to get everything settled without knowing where I am, for sure. I feel so far away from reaching my best. I keep asking myself about what is wrong with me, will I be able to fight my laziness if I keep doing the same pattern, what is my point of doing all those daily activities, have I done my best—which of course, I have not at all—am I going to be the change that I want to be in this world and so on…

Then, I just got stung again with this question that shattered most of my thoughts above.

“Unless I ask the right question to myself, how can I find the right answer?”

Think about this: Why are you doing what you do everyday?

Ask yourself, whether this bustling world—which is made by laborious people—has made you not aware of essential things in life.

No, wait. This is the former question that you have to know the answer, first.

“Do you really know and understand what are the essential things in life?” In your life, to be exact.

Thenceforth, ask yourself again: Have I realized what is the essence of everything that I do or I’ve done? Am I not losing the essence of this life?

Don’t forget to make sure of it.

There’s a simple conclusion related to the things that we do everyday without oppugning much.

We automatically do what we think we have to do.

We feel that we must do it, since it’s like a conformity in the society. We have this mechanic urge to achieve what the world tends to admire or amaze about, or simply, we are afraid to be different. We are shaped by this society which seems so assiduous. ‘Assiduous’ as we may say, but ironically, we’re also like a walking zombie. Don’t you ever feel like walking in void?

Well, let’s end this colloquy—wait, or is this a soliloquy?

I hope this bunch of words can be a straight-out reflection for those who read it.

Well, maybe what is written here is not that obvious, since each of us needs to find our own clarity. I purposely leave all the questions unanswered and no longer recital, so that those who read this can elaborate the questions and answers by their own.

Make your life meaningful.

Lead an awesome life! J

Sebuah kacamata dari Kedua Sobatku

Ini hanyalah selampir tulisan singkat yang terinspirasi dari dua pribadi sahabatku.

Begitu optimis, sehingga terkadang dianggap terlalu tinggi berharap dan berekspektasi. Segala dugaannya yang membangkitkan harapannya, terkesan sebagai 'obat' dan pelarian baginya untuk melihat dan mengakui fakta sesungguhnya. Ketika ia sudah celik, ia bisa jatuh terjerembab. Untungnya, dia selalu bangkit dan tegar menghadapi fakta yang seharusnya ia hadapi sejak dulu.

Begitu pesimis, sehingga terkadang dianggap terlalu rendah menilai diri sendiri dan miskin harapan. Entah ia menyadarinya atau tidak, ia selalu mengganggap dirinya tidak bisa apa-apa. Padahal, kemampuannya di atas yang ia kira. Padahal, ia memiliki banyak potensi. Namun, ia ditutupi oleh kepesimisan itu. Sisi positifnya, ia selalu mawas diri dan berlogika tinggi. Berbagai rangkaian pikiran ia susun dan jarang orang yang bisa memenangkan perdebatan dengannya. Mungkin, itulah hasil dari berjaga-jaga karena terlalu banyak melihat hal negatif di sekitarnya. 

Keduanya amat bertolak belakang. Keduanya bisa dibilang sama-sama ekstrem. Keduanya bisa dibutakan. Yang satu, dibutakan oleh keoptimisannya. Yang satu, dibutakan oleh kepesimisannya. Singkat kata, bagiku kedua sobatku ini menyimpulkan satu hal. Satu hal yang bisa dikatakan menjadi kacamataku, yaitu penilaian diri dan situasi yang benar (tidak teralu rendah dan tidak terlalu tinggi) amat penting karena berpengaruh bagi pembawaan diri dan pola pikir kita.

Hembusan Waktu

Dia melangkah
Begitu kasatmata bertingkah
Dia berjalan
Begitu dekat dengan bualan

Dia menari-nari
Di sekelilingku, ya, dia menari-nari
Dia terbang, lalu hinggap
Di bahu insan fana ini

Kadang ia pergi, kadang ia datang
Kadang ia duduk diam, kadang ia lari luntang-lantang
Kadang ia berbicara, kadang ia membisu
Kadang ia tertawa, menangis, marah, dan terharu

Bagaikan setitik embun pagi
Dia menyegarkan
Bagaikan buaian kasih sayang
Dia dibutuhkan

Dia bermasa lalu, bermasa sekarang, dan bermasa depan
Dia secerah langit biru, sekelam langit abu-abu
Dia meringkuk di sampingmu seraya terus berjalan
Membisikkan rahasia kehidupan, dia terus berhembus

Sometimes, All It Takes Just One Scream

Sometimes, all it takes just one scream.

One scream to express,

One scream to surpass,
One scream to feel,
One scream to heal.

Sometimes, all it takes just one scream.

One scream to cheer,
One scream to hear,
One scream to tear,
One scream to bear.

Sometimes, all it takes just one scream.

One scream to assure yourself how great life has been,
One scream to show yourself how blind you've been,
One scream to awake yourself from a deep sleep.

Sometimes all it takes just one scream.

One scream to take you somewhere far,
One scream to take you somewhere high,
One scream to take you somewhere new,
One scream to make you laugh,
One scream to make you cry,
One scream to make you think.

Sometimes, all it takes just one scream.

One scream to open your mouth,
One scream to open your mind,
One scream to open your heart.

Sometimes, all it takes just one scream.

Ocean Sky

I'm a wave in the sky,
Reaching for the aglow star.
I walk,
I run,
I dance.
I fall,
I rise,
I climb.
I write,
I draw,
I talk,
I sing.
I think,
I dream.

WORDS of Mine

LIFE

"We are born to trust, to fight, to be grateful, and to return everything back for HIS glory."

"Don't get too attached and too sensitive because nothing and no one will stay the same as long as you live."

"LIFE is all about our journey as we're given a chance to live."

"The past is the past. We should learn it from it, so it's worthy to be remembered. We should master it to face the future."

"To travel is to seek. To seek is to learn. To learn is to understand. And to understand is to enrich your life."

"Deciding to stop hoping and expecting is like denying that you're alive."

"With faith and understanding, we will journey this life from nothing to something."

"Have a straight heart. Then, you'll have a straight mind and will. And you can do everything sincerely."

"Don't change yourself for someone who's just fooling around with you. Stay true and show your true colours!"

"To find out who you truly are, you have to choose to go through the initially painful and ultimately comforting process of finding it."

"When your heart is straight, so be your mind, emotion, and will."

"Fight for what is righteous."

"Somehow and somewhere in this world, there lays my dream waiting to be reached."

"To the future, I pray for you. To the present, I'm faced with you. To the past, I learn from you."

"Open your eyes. Seek for understanding. Determine your future. Chase your dreams. Never give up. Shine as you're a star."

"Every of us is a star and we are the ones who decide how bright we wanna shine in the sky."

"I'll climb the sun, and before I reach my burning star that shines lively, I will never ever give up."

"Sometimes, it's not about giving up. But it's about how you know, deal, and admit of what you're not meant to have."

"Just don't give up on trying if you're sure what you want is what you need and it's the best for you."


LOVE

"Together, side by side, let's make a wonderful story."

"Despite of those pains and sorrows I had when we were together, 'till now I feel so blessed to have known you in my life."

"I will travel the lands, I will swim the seas, just to reach you and hold you forever."

"Whenever I see you, I see and angel who falls from the sky. Whenever I see you, I see the one who shows me what love is."

"When I see you, I see a clear blue sky that I want to hold forever. When I see you, I see someone whom I'll love forever and always."

"Maybe, I've loset my mind for deeply loving someone who won't love me back."

"I'll keep the memory of you and me inside infinity."

"I seriously can't stop thinking about you."

"Whenever I'm with you, I act strange. That's all because I can't handle my beating heart and I tend to get nervous near my crush."

"I love to look back when we were together and stay there for a moment... Because I can't stand of the pain with you leaving me now."

"An invisible red thread connects those who are destined to meet, regardless of time, place, or circumstance. The thread may stretch or tangle, but it will never break."

"I've never seen such a lovely sky which is seen whenever I'm with you."

"You're so not perfect, you're not that obedient and dependable. But there are times when you can be so great. And I like you, since it's 'you'."

"You're my morning light, my excitement of the day, and my night star. You're the only love of my life."

Young and Old

by Charles Kingsley (1819-1875)

When all the world is young, lad,
And all the trees are green;
And every goose a swan, lad,
And every lass a queen;
Then hey for boot and horse, lad,
And round the world away;
Young blood must have its course, lad,
And every dog his day.

When all the world is old, lad,
And all the trees are brown;
And all the sport is stale, lad,
And all the wheels run down;
Creep home, and take your place there,
The spent and maimed among :
God grant you find one face there,
You loved when all was young.

One Day

One day, I'll go to a peaceful place where the birds fly freely in the sky and the wind blows smoothly.
I'll scream to tell the world how much you meant for me.
I'll shout about my feelings, thoughts, and emotions towards you.
Then, I'll whisper about my untouchable dream which I want it to be with you.
I can't have you, nevertheless, I love you and I will always do.
You're my unreachable star.
You're my irreplaceable blur.
One day, I'll say this unspoken words.
One day, I'll say it all clearly.
One day, everything will be as clear as a crystal.
One day, everything will be as clear as the bright sky that I dream of.
One day.

"To find out who you truly are, you have to choose to go through the initially painful and ultimately comforting process of finding it."

"Who you are, what you are, as long as everything is real and true... It's beautiful."

Everyone has his/her own demon. It ruins the soul, heart, and mind. It's everybody's choice to keep the demon or not. It's everyone's temptation to raise that demon since every of us is evil.

Just Popped into My Head!

"When your heart is straight, so be your mind, emotion, and will."

"Fight for what is righteous."

"We can't choose what stays and what fades away, but we can always try to understand and be faithful."

"To the future, I pray for you. To the present, I'm facing you. To the past, I learn from you."

"You're so not perfect, you're not that obedient and dependable. But there are times when you can be so great in my eyes. And I love you because it's 'you'."

"Somehow and somewhere in this world, there lays my dream waiting to be reached."

"We were born to trust, to fight, to be grateful, and to return everything back for His glory."

"Broken wings, but not a broken mind."

"YOU!!! Open your eyes. Seek for understanding. Determine your future. Chase your dreams. Never give up. Shine as you're a bright star."

"Try your best. Prove it to them that your dream isn't just a fantasy since it's an authenticity. It will be soon. Just BELIEVE and DO IT!"

"We are humans, so we have the freedom to think and act."

"Don't give up when it all comes down. Just keep looking for what you're looking for. One day, you'll see that only light of your life."

"Flap your wings, take those dreams, and make them come true."

"Turn around. See what you've been through. Realize the mistakes you had. Learn from them. Be stronger and wiser to keep walking on your own path."

"Be wise. Be smart. Be joyful. Be prudent. Be strong. Be persevering. Be faithful. Trust in the Lord Jesus Christ."

Damn It's True ;)

First dates = awkward.
First kisses = heavenly.
First love = irreplaceable.
First heartbreaks = unforgettable.

Best Relationship : Talk like best friends. play like children, argue like husband & wife, protect each other like brother & sister...

What begins with "I love you", doesn't have to end with "I hate you". Just say "Thank you" & "Nice to know you."

Good to be Known and Done

Watch your thoughts before they become words.
Watch your words before they become actions.
Watch your actions before they become habits.
Watch your habits before they become character.
Watch your character before it becomes your destiny...


:) be critical and strong-minded. think about the others, not only yourself. Live above the sun :D

More than Sweet ;)

A WONDERFUL BOYFRIEND

Don't care if you have a boyfriend or girlfriend right now.
I don't care if you are a guy or a woman or Michael Jackson.
Just read this, it will make a difference.
If only everyone could see this and understand it.


When she stares at your mouth
Kiss her

When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy cause she
thinks shes stronger than you
Grab her and don't let go

When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough
Kiss her and tell her you love her

When she's quiet
Ask her whats wrong

When she ignores you
Give her your attention

When she pulls away
Pull her back

When you see her at her worst
Tell her she's beautiful

When you see her start crying
Just hold her and don't say a word

When you see her walking
Sneak up and hug her waist from behind

When she's scared
Protect her

When she steals your favorite hoodie
Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night

When she teases you
Tease her back and make her laugh

When she doesn't answer for a long time
reassure her that everything is okay

When she looks at you with doubt
Back yourself up

When she says that she loves you
she really does more than you can understand

When she grabs at your hands
Hold her's and play with her fingers

When she bumps into you;
bump into her back and make her laugh

When she tells you a secret
keep it safe and untold

When she looks at you in your eyes
dont look away until she does

When she says it's over
she still wants you to be hers

When she reposts this bulletin
she wants you to read it

- Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything
- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go
- When she says she's ok don't believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you
- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
-Treat her like she's all that matters to you
- Stay up all night with her when she's sick
- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid
- Give her the world.
- Let her wear your clothes
-When she's bored and sad, hang out with her
-Let her know she's important.
- Don't talk about other girls around her
- Kiss her in the pouring rain
- When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is:
"Whose ass am i kicking baby?"

somthin to say to the ones you love...

"Though I don't know what will the future bring, no matter how many choices lay in front of you, choose the path where you stay with me." -BlackBird

"YOU. The first thing I thought of every morning, the last thing that stays on my mind every night..."